||[Aug. 31st, 2004|11:56 pm]
I fucked up royally today. I let myself down ,I let lose, I am so bad. I was not going to eat or if I did eat I was going to eat 500 calories or less. And I ate and ate. I hated myself for doing it. I need to be slapped.
Starting today (since it is 12:02am) I am going either fast or else resrict to 500 calories or less. I need to start losing weight again. I lost like 25lbs then gained 4lbs back. I want it off ALL OF IT. Well as we speak a friend just asked me if I want to do a 28 day fast with her. I am not sure if I can do 28 days but I will try my hardest. Only water nothing else. No gum, diet pop, tea,coffee or crystal light. Wow can I do this? I sure the hell hope so.
So today is a brand new day and a brand new me by the time I am done. My friend who has done this fast before (well 23 days) lost 48lbs. I hope I can do this. Ahhh wish me luck
ate: lets not go there.
*nothing taste as good as thin feels*